08 February 2004
changed the color of the font.find its too hard to see if its black.today was dragged out of bed by my mom to go to the beach.arh!! so boring can! than went there for breakfast..than sat thr and stone while my parents went for a stroll n my sis played in the sea.than came home n haf been slacking since than.im suppose to go to queens way but my mommy doesnt seem to want to bring me there anymore..so i jus gota wait till my daddy offers to drive me there.hahah.i desprately need shoes loh! aiya! nvm.hm.i got nth to say to u le.live ur own life.i tell u a million times u also wont listen.jus stop with all the sorries..it all jus seems like words..words u dun mean..so forget it! do whateva u like.im not gona be bothered.i dun care anymore.yeah go jump down and die like u always say u want too.do it then! maybe then it will end ur sorrows maybe it will end the illusion of pain u been going thru.im tired of all this shit.deb.im dissapointed.i knw..maybe its ur mother and all the pressure u been getting but i dun understand the nid for that..hai.this is dissapointing..i honestly give up.n beg for forgivness fr not putting enuff effort into stopping all of u all..
UTTER STUPIDITY
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//its not easy to understand im sorry i din.is not easy to be there when u are stuck in between
sm at 2:38:00 PM